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09 December 2012 @ 01:56 am
Errr... in the middle of the night, I write this post. Feeling weird cause my mom always asks me what type of man whom I like?
Not ever once, I ever explain my type (especially these types) ... unbelievable right? but since my mom is a career woman, of course, without being realized by her, there is a big gap between us...

So here my Ideal Man (I will make it into many parts)

[1.SMART]Of course, he isn't like Albert Einstein, Stephen Hawking, or Leonardo da Vinci. I like smart man such as Isaac Newton or Thomas Alva Edison. Isaac Newton? cause he has so many question and keep searching for it until the apple felt down to his head... Or maybe smart like Thomas Alva edison who never gives up to find any innovation. I call him smart cause you need a very huge patience...

"I have not failed 1,000 times. I have successfully discovered 1,000 ways to NOT make a light bulb." a famous quote from Edison... I love to have a smart man who has 1000 explanations about a question. Not an excuse, but that is experimental result.

Honestly I'm kind a interrogator type of woman. Really ... really ... really like to ask many questions... Jumping from a topic to another topics. Of course, I will be bored to death if there isn't proper explanation regarding my question. I would like to have smart husband cause I would like to see his interaction with our children. I want to see my children ask him , " Papa, what will happen if.... or Papa, what is ... "
If he couldn't answer, then both of us will take kids to library... For finding the answers.

I don't know why I like this kind of situation.
Who is the role model? There is no standard man until now, cause I would like to give some answers and I will conclude his answers to know is he smart enough

20 June 2012 @ 08:34 am
whenever that rain fall down from the sky,
I will run to find the light...
I'm looking for the rainbow pen ...
where it writes the most beautiful story I've ever heard

source : http://www.missouriskies.org/rainbow/february_rainbow_2006.html
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Current Music: chankapana - NEWS
03 June 2012 @ 07:08 pm
Finally I can write in this journal again...

Ah, I'm missing to tell everything but yeah, as usual I will lock them in my heart. 
"But however you enjoy your life" I always to myself like. When I have longer time, I will write again... but for now I say "Bubye"
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Current Music: tegomass-Mahou no Melody
29 December 2011 @ 06:16 am
  Do you know I'm missing you now?

Just trying to move on...
Not trying to be a victim.

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Current Music: Firework - Kary Perry
29 November 2011 @ 06:17 am
Here is one of my fave...

I want you to bite my lip until I can no longer speak. And then suck my ex girlfriend’s name out of my mouth just to make sure she never comes up in our conversations. I’m going to be honest, I’m not really a love poet. In fact, every time I try to write about love my hands cramp… just to show me how painful love can be. And sometimes my pencils break, just to prove to me that every now and then love takes a little more work than you planned.

See I heard that love is blind so, I write all my poems in brail. And my poems are never actually finished because true love is endless. I always believed that real love is kind of like a super model before she’s air brushed; it’s pure and imperfect, just the way that God intended. See I’m going to be honest, I’m not a love poet. But if I was to wake up tomorrow morning and decide that I really wanted to write about love I swear that my first poem… it would be about you.

About how I loved you the same way that I learned how to ride a bike: Scared… but reckless with no training wheels or elbow pads so my scars can tell the story of how I fell for you. You see, I’m not really a love poet. But if I was I’d write about how I see your face in every cloud and your reflection in every window, you see I’ve written like a million poems hoping that somehow maybe someway you’ll jump out of the page and be closer to me because if you were here, right now, I would massage your back until your skin sings songs that your lips don’t even know the words to.

Until your heartbeat sounds like my last name and you smile like the pacific ocean, I want to drink the sunlight in your skin. If I was a love poet, I’d write about how you have the audacity to be beautiful, even on days when everything around you is ugly you see I’d write about your eyelashes and how they are like violin strings that play symphonies every time you blink.

If I was a love poet I’d write about how I melt in front of you like an ice sculpture, every time I hear the vibration in your voice so whenever I see your name on the caller ID my heart, it plays hop scotch inside of my chest. Yo it climbs on to my ribs like monkey bars and I feel like a child all over again. I know this sounds strange but every now and then I pray that God somehow turns you back in to one of my ribs just so that I would never have to spend an entire day without you.

I swear, I’m not a love poet. But if I was to wake up tomorrow morning and decide that I really wanted to write about love, my first poem it would be about you. And after all of that she was like, so how do you feel about me? And I said, put it like this: I want to be your ex boyfriend’s stunt man. I want to do everything that he never had the courage to do like… trust you.

I swear that when our lips touch I can taste the next sixty years of my life. And some days I want to swallow stacks of your pictures just so you can be a part of me for a little bit longer. If I could I would sample your smile and then I would let my heart beat, do the bass line, we would create the greatest love song of all time. Whenever, we stand next to each other, love I was the only one made for you and you can be at last my Etta James. I’ll be oh child when you’re in pain or you could be candy coated drops of rain even though it never rains in Southern California. And together, we could be music.

And when my friends ask if you’re my girlfriend, I’ll say no. She is my musician. And me… I’m her favorite song.

Yeah... I really like the italic one

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14 November 2011 @ 09:14 am
In simple way, I don't want to hurt anybody.
But in reality, I can't make it simply because life is endless challenge.

Looking out my window and thinking what I've been through for long time.
My twitter is full with my rants toward music and my likeness but my FB is full out-of-sighs 
I can't believe that I'm so much in restraining myself like this
and I can't believe that I can make myself lost in feeling...

Being a human isn't about my ownself or desires.
I just believe what I want to believe, I can hear everything
but it will be ended by doing what I want to do or even I should do

I'm not kind a mannequin who will wear what people want me to be looked
It is because I have my responsibilities in doing many things...

My reason for taking risk isn't about just taking advantages but as an adult I want to feel the burden of having responsibility.
There's no try for me cause DO or DO NOT is the main word.
If you DO then TRY
If you DON'T then LEAVE

Do you believe there is a sentence like : I'm not TRYing to hurt you
But in Fact, these words come with so much pain which says : I DO hurt you

Watching Arashi isn't about a fangirl who dreams to get married with her idol... Nope... There is 1% possibilities but my aim isn't simple as that.

For me, Having idols will be ended to one point: Once I meet them, My likeness will lose somewhere. Whatever the condition. 
DBSK ... ah ah ah... Being in a fandom like 2PM has made me learn so many things... Unstable Reaction towards any Management Decision. DramaQueen in so many ways... Geez

Enough Kpop for me... 

Real Life : My Final Project, Marriage, Job
Fact : Finishing my Final Project...

Being perfectionist isn't about perfect but honestly it is about myself who gives 100% total effort
Because until now I NEVER do it, Oh, I DID it ONCE where I held my tears and so much in pain for throwing my feelings away; Standing here as a rational person.

I'm thanking God for giving me best enemies so I learn so many pains
I'm thanking God for showing me best friends so I learn so many loves

    source image: google    

p.s: To the owner of this picture, Please contact me if you come because of browsing. I will give credit to your image ^_^

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Current Music: Last Song - GACKT
04 November 2011 @ 02:09 am
For so many days I'm getting into Arashi than NEWS... Please come back soon ... 

 I guess my mood is going back to normal now...

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Current Music: 5x10 ~ Arashi
15 October 2011 @ 03:19 pm

(pronounced /ˈpɛtrɨkər/; from Greek petra "stone" + ichor the fluid that flows in the veins of the gods in Greek mythology) is the name of thescent of rain on dry earth.

source: wikipedia
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08 October 2011 @ 10:59 pm

This is a simple advertisement... But I can't hold my tears...
08 October 2011 @ 08:01 pm

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source: here

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